Fragile

I know you don't know it, but I am fragile.. I just don't show it. I'm emotional, I just don't show it. I cry almost everyday, but only 1 friend ever saw me cry. I am vunerable, but I'm not letting peole step on me. You know, if you were there on the grass today, that really really really hurt my feelings and I wanted to cry so bad, but I didn't, I'm not letting anyone, ever, mess with me like that again. I rather have those words "Are you okay ?" than you play around with me. Get to know me before you even mess. Thank you to the only person who asked if I'm okay, even though I lied to you, and I'm truly sorry about that. I just didn't wanna cry again. Maybe this doesn't sound like me, but that's because you don't know me. You might take this as a joke, but I learned how to control my tears and for the past month I lost that control. Once again, I feel as if I can't control things that go on in my life, even though I can never do that. "Just let it go." But I myself is tired of waiting and anticipating. I take the small things out of everyone else's perspective, but the way I look at it, everyone word can make me or break me. I'm all about detail and keep those details happy. I don't need more to deal with at the moment so I can put this off, as long as I want. And don't except me to bring a smile to 5th period tomorrow. Hey you can say it was a small thing, but I'll remember it.

I'm tired of blogging.
As of right now: "Your worthless." .. thanks kuya.


Sincerely,
Kathleen Michelle Reichenberger