When I'm not crazy..

"You tell me no one would love you
If they could see deep inside
You say your friends might desert you
If they knew the truth you hide, well
There's one who knows you better than
You know yourself
And he still loves you more than anyone else

Jesus doesn't care what you've done before
How you've rebelled or slammed the door
No matter how far you've run or how long you've been untrue
Jesus doesn't care
He still offers forgiveness to you

For so long you've run from the Father
Into a life of sin
And each time He lovingly called you
You turned your back on Him
No matter if your failures are great or small
There's no way to hide them
He already know them all

How many tears will you cry
Till you cry out to the Father
An honest plea for mercy He will not deny
Trust Him and you're gonna find."

Point of grace- Jesus doesn't care.


At confirmation, we listened to this song after 1 of the 10 worst days I've had. 8% drop in Math, Fighting with bf and bf, getting picked up an hour late, then getting yelled at for Math, then getting angry to find cut knuckles from punching my wall. It was a rampage practically. I felt so many emotions, like "why would a God who loved me, put me through this ?" or "Why does my life such so much ?" I know the answers any Christian would tell me, I even knew the right answers. But, once again I practically said to God, "I know you can help me, but wait let me do this and fail by myself, I got this." Unfortunately, I try to block any sort of reason in my head when hurt. I came to confirmation bitter and "dgafreak" status. We talked about prayer, and how it went through my mind.. I didn't pray to God once during this day, I just damned him. We were also given rocks and sharpies, we were meant to write our burdens on our rocks and lay them at the feet of the cross. So many burdens were happening at the time, so I didn't know what to write, but I wrote the same one I always do when we "burn our burdens".. I know that God is waiting for me to finally take a different road everytime I stumble from a hard day, I have low patience and I really long to grow in trusting in God's plan for me no matter how long it might take. Please pray for patience and trusting in God through all trials. Please and thank you.

Sincerely,
Kathleen Michelle Reichenberger