SUPkathleen: Take the lead

Lately, it has been weird, akward & hard. Like someone told me before, I have to get my life straight. But, I wonder how hard the impact of the situation has to be to really stick. I honestly, believe I was hit so hard to the point of change.. apparently, I wasn't. My steps always seem to fall on the wrong road. I always ask myself why do I have to take the road that leads me nowhere, when I can go down the road to happiness ? I never seem to give myself an answer.. I just let it go for the mean time. Of course, who doesn't wanna be happy ? But, there's practically 2 types of happy, so which one do you choose to be ? I never seem to give myself answers, and I don't like accepting answers from others even though I crave it. I know change for me is a hard thing to take in.. fully.

I'll try my best now to look on the other side, PTL more often, and just be happy that I have accountability partners. They are here for me, look out for me & worry about me.. So why do I still put myself down ? Changing is a hard thing, it's a process, so for now.. I'll take 1 step at a time. Baby steps, but I'm moving forward and leaving the things that I don't need now.

"I hope you know I try."

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I know we've been struggling, honestly I think it's because I've been going through alot lately + PMSing -_- , I just want you to know, I just want to be able to be your best friend & girlfriend. You always seem to surprise me Phan.. like I said, I need to take baby steps through everything now.. I just ask you to be there for me when I fall. Thank you for everything <3

"It's like catching lighting, the chances of
finding someone like you."