Surprise

I am surprised with this whole situation, even though it shouldn't be a big thing to me. The past is the past right ? Get over it, is what I would say. But, for me, I have to look at this situation a lil'l differently. Honestly, I put SO much trust in to you, and I knew that you wouldn't break it. If you felt that way before, you should of told me, or shouldn't have lied to me. If you were doubting your decision before, you shouldn't have told me you were happy picking me. I know I will get over it, it's just that I'm butthurt. I really thought YOU wouldn't ever lie to me or anything in that sense, I really thought you were different. And you keep telling me that you are, I believe you .. and I know everyone makes mistakes, I just wish you would of told me instead of hearing the day before the month.

I know your trying to make this better, I just need a day or 2 because having your mindset on something and this was the 1st real big problem that came upon us, I have to adjust, because this is bound to happen again with either you or me creating it. When I talked to John or Melissa about how much I really want this to work, I wasn't lying. I know we still have to work on this, we are still on different levels. Just know I want this as much as you do. I set standards for a reason, and I know you came along for a reason. All I need to see is that you just don't say you want this to work, I want to see it. We just have to work this out.

Sincerely,
Kathleen Michelle Reichenberger